is this the last hope?

today i called you...

u ask, "what's the matter?"...

i said..."nothing"...

and u said "i know u wanna say something...don't lie to me..."

and i replied "are we just friends?"

there was an awkward silence...

u were quiet...

too quiet...

and i?

i just shut my mouth and cursing myself for asking that question...

all of sudden u replied "yeah...it will hard if we couple up.. u know... things... stuff...it ain't easy for us..."

"yeah... i got it... i was just asking...." that's what i replied...

it wasn't exactly what i wish to say, but i said it...

after that, that awkward silence reappear... 

and u ask... "did someone propose to u?"

i was just shaking my head... i just can't answer that...i just don't know how...

and u said again.."did someone ask for your hand? did  someone propose to u? did someone? u can say yes.. i don't mind... i mean... u totally can say yes.. i don;t mind at all... but, i hope that u'll never forget me... i hope we still act the way we use to be...just don't forget me..."....

i was hurt...

you don't care as long as i'm still your friend...

you don't care, you don't mind if someone took me away...

you don't care if i move on...

you don't care if i'll love someone else....

i know u won't care...

cause u never do...

by the time i told u that i wanted to move on, try to love someone else and try to let someone else be in my heart,

u're gone... never replied or said a thing...

at that moment, all i could do...

is cry... 

i wish that wasn't your reaction...

i wish u'll stop me...

i wish u'll say don't go...

i wish u said we're more than friend...

i wish i never made that decision...

but i just did, and u never care....

maybe, 

that's the best way for us...

maybe, i should learn to live without u...

cause u never care and we were never more than that...

and i? will learn to love someone that's not u...