u ask, "what's the matter?"...
i said..."nothing"...
and u said "i know u wanna say something...don't lie to me..."
and i replied "are we just friends?"
there was an awkward silence...
u were quiet...
too quiet...
and i?
i just shut my mouth and cursing myself for asking that question...
all of sudden u replied "yeah...it will hard if we couple up.. u know... things... stuff...it ain't easy for us..."
"yeah... i got it... i was just asking...." that's what i replied...
it wasn't exactly what i wish to say, but i said it...
after that, that awkward silence reappear...
and u ask... "did someone propose to u?"
i was just shaking my head... i just can't answer that...i just don't know how...
and u said again.."did someone ask for your hand? did someone propose to u? did someone? u can say yes.. i don't mind... i mean... u totally can say yes.. i don;t mind at all... but, i hope that u'll never forget me... i hope we still act the way we use to be...just don't forget me..."....
i was hurt...
you don't care as long as i'm still your friend...
you don't care, you don't mind if someone took me away...
you don't care if i move on...
you don't care if i'll love someone else....
i know u won't care...
cause u never do...
by the time i told u that i wanted to move on, try to love someone else and try to let someone else be in my heart,
u're gone... never replied or said a thing...
at that moment, all i could do...
is cry...
i wish that wasn't your reaction...
i wish u'll stop me...
i wish u'll say don't go...
i wish u said we're more than friend...
i wish i never made that decision...
but i just did, and u never care....
maybe,
that's the best way for us...
maybe, i should learn to live without u...
cause u never care and we were never more than that...
and i? will learn to love someone that's not u...
